i've got a gorgeous 5 1/2" x 8 1/2" stillman and birn 'gamma' sketchbook and i'm determined to get used to the bigger page size! i've been a 4" x 6" sketchbook person for years, but i think that working on a bigger page has things to teach me, and i want to learn...
collage, watercolors, gouache, casein paint, pencil & colored pencil
basically i've done a lot of covering up (and even some tearing out). when all else fails you can always fall back on that. the left page initially had a face on it, and on the right page there was a sort of deer creature with a bird on its back. they did not make my eyes smile!
then i thought i'd turn the book sideways and more or less divide each page in half - i thought i might be able to handle that, and i thought it looked great in kim's book here, but i didn't like that i had to turn the book sideways to look through it!
more of a sort of 'gridness'...
'violet' ~ watercolors, pencil & colored pencil
as i sat there wringing my hands over my dilemma, my dh suggested drawing a 4" x 6" rectangle on the page and working in that. jeez! did i have to stoop to that to fool my mind or eye or whatever it was that was struggling with this?! ha! i guess so!
'gentle people' ~ watercolors & pencil
so i did, and it was alright... but just so... linear.
watercolors, .25 rapidosketch pen, colored pencil & pencil
it's been a few days since the 'gentle people' and i guess you might say that i just surrendered to the whole thing; it's not seeming like such a big deal any more. i've done some writing and doodling and i enjoyed the fact that there was more room on the page...
the page above is the one i'm working on today. i feel comfortable with it so far. i have no idea where it's going but it's not freaking me out that the page is so big and that i don't have a visual idea of where to go next. i'm beginning (i think) to feel the potential of a larger surface.
i've also been painting some faces on cardboard... tina lorene (right) is done, but not evelyn...
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At the beginning of a new notebook I copy a quote from Simone Weil, which captures me completely: “Don’t insist on understanding new things, but try with your whole self, with patience, effort and method, to comprehend obvious truths.”
This quote conducts a polemic with the ceaseless, barbaric pursuit of novelty and disdain for obvious, primary truths.
And so all my notes, all these snail’s traces, are the realization of Simone’s one thought. I won’t and can’t discover anything, I want only with my whole self to reach the heart of obvious truths.
Anna Kamienska, from her Notebooks via tumblr